You Deserve My Hate - HeartFlo

You deserve my hate, and never expected my forgiveness.  I could hold this against your forever, but what would make the difference? Choosing to forgive you, releases me.  No more can the offense resin thru me, forgiveness -    frees me.

Child runaway, living halfway, you seen me as a throwaway
But, God’s power, God’s freedom, I display.

Smothered my innocence and left me breathless, groping thru the dark for any piece of light, even if that light was artificial sight. Hating you imprisoned me, entangled me to your ideology. Doing to myself over and over again what you did to me, through fogged mirrors, false lights, and late night schemes.  My life means more to me, than it ever will to you. This is why I choose to forgive you.

Child runaway, living halfway, you seen me as a throwaway
But, God’s power, God’s freedom, and God’s glory I display.

Stopped by my God-Momma’s house and overheard a conversation. They say, they saw you out on the streets, said you barely had shoes on your two feet.  When they called your name you turned around- dazed, even looked a little insane.  They said your face was clouded with shame. It seemed you didn’t recognize your own name.  I don’t know what happened to you – after.  I only know my own disaster, how life gave me no answers, how I turned into a   prostitute/stripper/dancer. Raising my kids alone, while my soul dug its own cancer.

Child runaway   living halfway   seen me as a throwaway
But, my power, my freedom, I display.

            You deserve my hate, and never expected my forgiveness, I could hold this against your forever, but, what would make the difference? Choosing to forgive you- Releases me.  Hating you imprisoned me, entangled me- to your ideology.   No more can this offense resin thru me.  Forgiveness- finally frees me.

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The poet/spoken word artist, HeartFlo Spent years in and out of drug addiction, people addiction and found freedom in writing, and a spiritual renewal with my higher power. HeartFlo currently performs spoken word poetry and writes from those experiences.